Rarely does anything go as planned for me. So I’m really not surprised my parents are only going to be gone until Sunday or Monday, rather than for two weeks as they told me. I don’t think they ever intended to be gone that long, which makes me wonder why they kept insisting they would be gone that long.

Still I should be able to manage a two pound weight loss this week, even if it is only ‘water weight’. Although I didn’t do well yesterday. Today I feel like I don’t even deserve to be hungry.

I would like to not be so obsessed about myself. The one thing I hate the most and I can’t stop thinking about it. It’s madness, I know. I wake up thinking about how much worse the wrinkles will be on my face because of the way I’ve slept, my stomach, the flab. Even just lying in bed, alone, no one can see me, I find myself covering my neck, spreading my hand and pushing back the skin to give myself a better chin, stronger jawline. I’m all alone. Who’s going to see? But I do it anyway.

I haven’t really been anywhere since my parents left. Today I’m going to set myself two tasks. I’ll go to my shop awhile and open up, return a phone call or two, and I’ll either go to the pharmacy or do some shopping for the house. This is all gearing up to I have some clothes I need to take to either the thrift shop or the drop off which has to be done tomorrow at the latest. So two things I have to make myself do today to get out of the house. Things I can’t do… eat any sweets,.

Oh, but in good news, I had a little white cyst next to my eye, been there for months, driven me crazy. It was very very white and at the corner of my eye which is always discolored just making something white stand out more, and it finally went away. Yippeeee! One less thing to drive me crazy.